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TAYLOR BELLNEUTRAL | GWU CHEMISTRY/CRIMINOLOGY MAJOR
you create the world of the dreamfull name:
taylor dylan bellnickname(s):
t, tay, dyl, age:
august 29 1993 totem:
taylor's totem is an hourglass. it is small and on a necklace. She bought it for herself when she was diagnosed with cancer to remind herself that time runs out and to live each day like it's the end of the hourglass. IN dreams the sand keeps running and running, but the level never gets lower and the bottom half never gets higher.
forgive me for wanting a little specificityheight:
five feet seven inchesbuild:
taller than her sister, slightly lanky. She likes to play sports so she has a bit of muscle tone, but after finding out that her cancer had returned she's been laying off most of the rigorous physical activity. eye color:
light browngeneral appearance:
The opposite of her sister, Taylor always seemed older than she really was. Especially when Taylor got older, people began to think that she was Kaylee's older sister rather than the other way around, which usually upset Kaylee substantially. Between growing up and battling cancer she lost the childish features of her face, slimming it down. Between the summers of eighth and ninth grade she hit a growth spurt of about five inches, passing her sister's height. Her legs are quite long in comparison to her torso, and she never quite grew into her height. She slouches a lot, partially because she's too lazy to keep good posture and sometimes she wishes she'd be shorter than her sister just so she can have one less thing to be hated for.
When Taylor was younger and even up until she was fourteen, she copied a lot of the things Kaylee did, mostly clothing wise. She often wore something similar to what Kaylee had worn the day before. One day Kaylee snapped and told her to get a wardrobe of her own, so she substituted the bright floral prints for basketball shorts and t-shirts. Her style has become more increasingly full of dull colors and comfortable clothes. Jeans, flannels, jackets, sneakers, raglan t-shirts. She especially loves baseball hats. Her hair is usually hidden behind a hat or pulled into a ponytail. pb claim:
my subconscious seems polite enoughpersonality:
Taylor has yet to find a personality of her own. Growing up she relied so much on her older sister on how she should act and what she should think. With the sudden absence of the model for everything to do, Taylor's is floundering. She feels lost. Not knowing how to react, she simply often doesn't. She's very straightforward and serious. She can be nice enough, but doesn't overly show emotion or attach herself to people. If she were to be described in one adjective it'd probably be neutral. Most of the time she's thinking about everything she's doing, afraid to do something wrong. She felt criticized most of her life and suppresses her natural reactions to things. Taylor has a shell she needs to be taken out of, no one really knows what she'd really be like behind it all.
When some people get cancer they get a pessimistic outlook on life, sometimes an optimistic. Taylor got neither, instead she became very realistic. She does not think everyone will die tomorrow or that no one will ever die. But she does realize that we all die someday. Some say she handled her 'situation' quite well considering that she was only ten. Taylor didn't turn all depressed on everyone, but she did shed her share of tears. But for the most part she handles a lot of things pretty well.
As the baby of the family, you'd expect her to be kind of a self-entitled spoiled brat begging for attention. Instead she feels more like the middle child. She just tries to be a peacemaker among her family. Most of the time she's quietly observing the others and she tries to avoid confrontation at all cost.
Due to the nature of the loss of her sister, Taylor is very cautious. She kind of always was when she was growing up and her sister was the wild, romantic one. Someone had to offset her. This translates into her work today, she never takes risks and plays by the book almost one hundred percent of the time. Taylor never spends a lot of time in the dream realm if it is not necessary. She's deathly afraid of losing her sense of what is real and what isn't, especially when it'd be such an easy escape from her sickness.
Taylor is a quiet fighter. She unexpectedly perseveres through everything, small or cancer. Those who notice it tend to admire her for it. She's also very self critical and has low self esteem. She feels like she will fail to live up to any expectations that people have for her. likes:
soccer, running, iced tea, the rain, red velvet cake, long hair, baseball caps, capt'n crunch, fresh cut grass, stuffed animals, broken in jeans, blankets, high fives. dislikes:
hospitals, medicine, windy days, wigs, messy things, being late, sleeping in, humidity skills:
chemistry (the government is glad she's on their side of the war), keeping a level head in most situations, most sports, hiding her sickness. weaknesses:
criticism, being herself, anything closely related to being a young woman, dancing and singing, creativity fears:
dying before she can do anything good for society, her family or even herself; falling in love (cliche, but it's not really that's she's afraid of falling in love. She's really afraid of someone actually caring about her and given her sickness she doesn't want anyone to become so attached to her and then she'd have to leave someday)
dreams feel real while we're in themcurrent residence:
Derrick Bell, deceased, Father
Krista Bell, 45, Mother
Dorian Bell, 24, Brother
Kaylee Bell, 20, Sister history:
Taylor was raised in a small suburban house in Ogunquit, Maine. The house had a white picket fence and a large backyard. She was the third Bell child to be born and was the baby of the family. Taylor spent her childhood following her older sister around everywhere. She lived in her shadow, but she hardly even noticed. Taylor hardly had an identity of her own. When people asked she simply said, "I'm Dorian and Kaylee's little sister." Her older sister and brother were very close and she often felt like the third wheel. Taylor had been very close to her father and when he died when she was five she felt like she lost even more of a connection to her family.
When Taylor was ten she was constantly getting sick, the trips to the doctor were getting more and more frequent. A week before her birthday she wad diagnosed with Leukemia. The doctors promised her and her mother that they had caught it early and she had a sixty percent chance of recovery. Taylor thought that sixty percent wasn't exactly the greatest of chances, but it was better than forty or even fifty. Her realistic sense of judgement was prevalent even as a ten year old. It was two years when she was finally declared in remission and then Taylor thought sixty percent was just enough.
After her few years fighting through Leukemia Taylor lived the rest of her childhood relatively normally. She was a good student, focusing on science and math. English was her most hated subject, but she still passed with flying colors. Taylor took quite a few advanced chemistry classes. She played on her school's soccer team, even was co-captain her senior year. After graduation she didn't have many plans for herself. Her chemistry teachers suggested majoring in chemistry and applying to a few colleges. Being influenced by others, she decided to follow their suggestions
She applied for George Washington University and was accepted early decision. Two months later she found out that the cancer had returned, in a weaker form this time. She was hospitalized for six months, they declared her in remission but there was a high chance that it would return at any time. At this time, Kaylee had discovered the world of dream sharing and was given a bad dose of a compound. She was lost forever into the world of limbo.
When she heard of various jobs in Narcotics teams against illegal shared dreaming, her experience with her sister inspired her to strive for this. For once Taylor made a decision for herself, to double major in chemistry and criminology. Once she gets a couple of years under her belt, she plans on applying for an internship in the MPDC narcotic's division. canon or original:
Recently Taylor has been experiencing spells of weakness where she has to sit down, slight weightloss, and headaches. She is worried that her cancer may be returning.
you mustn't be afraid to dream a little bigger, darlingname:
alexis/lex where'd you find us?
caution years of experience?
2? Haven't counted to be honest. contact information:
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