Fair Fittings.

[Carry_on]

Yes yes, I’m back scribbling on this piece of old scroll. As they say desperate times call for desperate measures and this seemed better to use then getting a new book for something as trivial as note keeping.

I believe what has happened, I just don’t like it. That hurricane, nature always careless, but it meant I met /her/ I know I’d been making sure she’d been going to the meetings but that was business, recruits and making sure she didn’t do anything foolish. I have no need of her death as such yet. Then she got stuck down a hole, a hole under tons of rubble. It was survival, burrow to keep safe. I’d taught her that. But the stupid gi- creature, time and a place. Her wolf had taken shelter in the Acadamys stable. I know that much of it at least.

And all those people, Kids themselvesm some younger then Elixia rushed to help, help. If she’d got into that situation she should’ve got what she deserved for getting into it. But they didn’t know how to do anything, nothing. So I had to help, it wasn’t her time.

She, the worthless, yes worthless that’s what she is. She has to be. et she has no clue. She can only just survive, not even that. She got into that Gang, imbecile. Ever since...

This is no time to dwell on past things, forgotten, forgotten all except that village, I have to remember that, it follows me.

I saved her, much as it pains me to admit, helpless thing she is she has our mothers tongue. She hates me and is fearfull of me, I can see that plain as daylight. She should on both accounts after what I did.

I know not now where she has gone, nor do I care. I can’t think why I’ve filled up this scratchings with musings of her. Misfortunate sister. It doesn’t matter what I write in here, it is from my middle brain, I need not manipulate people with this, who would hear?

This is what I am really recording.

I’ve found some new...friends, if that word can be used, and we are all going on a little trip, it’s all rubbish, the reason it’s been set up but to see most of those going, I think all younger then me. They wouldn’t last out there, without help, and if they do find something, well it would only be fair to partake in the riches.

[Carry_on]

That damn girl, a mild annoyance. She sent me mail about that aprentiship, what does she want to learn anyway? I’ll dig something up, handling blades would keep her occupied for a while. How did she find out about my conection with Elixia, no not Elixia, /Lighty/.
She doesn’t want to be known either.

It’s crazy, I looked after her all her life, I did anything to keep her alive. Untill then, but that’s not the point.

If I go back to the wildernes and find those villages, all those tiny things then apart from the nearest, if I get recognised those village boys, who no doubt have grown to be slowwitted farmhands, will have something to say about some misplaced food and bruises. No matter but not something I need.

I’ll have to take a scrap book to keep my records on, I can’t take this, people will be too close on a trip like this, where nothing stays hidden for long. I’ll get one from a market stall, cheap. It’s bothersome leaving my aquintences, and no instuctuions about my afairs behind. it’ll go to ruins, something like that has to be carefully monitered and look what I do, agree to go on this ‘quest’. I’ll shall have to start it up again on my return.

It si a shame. I had grown yse top civilisation over these past few years, I can survive but the company won’t be up to much.

A few hate me, one or two don’t know me and one has been digging
up a bit of my past, which is merging with my present.
it’s going to be a /pleasant trip/.

[Carry_on]

This is to be my last entry. And much good it will do me, I've picked up one from the market stall and now I have to find a place to stash this one.
I shall have to take this with me, even with running the risk of someone finding it, it'll be safer then leaving it behind. I shall just have to keep it on me, lining of my waistcoat should do it as I can't be bothered to find anything more ingenious at this moment in time. If anyone does read it they can be despensed of or if I'm feeling generous, bribed then dropped off in some village along the way, if I'm feeling nice.
It has to be done, if all the past things in here are found, to valuble to burn, to secret to put away, to precious to throw, to dangerous to be read, all so troublesome, uneccessary. So I'd have to.

Well Elixia has not shown her face, I am glad but family has a habit of turning up on your doorstep.

I found cheap supplies, keeping food, this trip shall hardly be varied in diet apart from hunted stock. I am meeting the others later on and then shall our trip only really start after we get past the next town, to 'uncharted' tracks.

I dare say this whole afair shall become .... tiresome ..... but such is life. Hah, here's to a /worthwhile/ journey. Azreiylaeh this will most definatly be a trip to remember, no matter how hard I may try to forget.