oh duuuude

[tigerpichukun]

It's been a few years, hasn't it? Time is a thin string indeed. This socially inept woman's terrible "disappearing acts" have done enough damage, I should think, but I don't know any better. And so I'm back here, full circle, in the rubble that I've created.

It is here that I hope someone will stumble upon the ramblings of my mind's eye ; am I insane, coming back here? I guess so. I like playing games and leaving hints. Over the length of time that I've been gone, I've explored the length of my sadomasochism and subsequently lost most of that.

You know what? I want to tell YOU, reader, what's happened to me. It is your choice alone to listen or not.

First and foremost, in my time with you all, I have blatantly lied in making you all believe that I was 2 years older than what I actually was. Remember when I turned 13? I was actually 11. At the time of writing, I am 14 years of age. I consider myself to be relatively mature and intelligent, and supremely bored.

My last "disappearing act" was sometime around when I started Fifth grade. Yeah. My immature self, burdened with schoolwork and friends, decided I was 'bored' with my online life. In doing this, I cast away my friends, my status, and the first person I have ever loved. My life was actually normal for a while, preoccupied by friends and playing Oblivion on my 360. Until, on the fateful night of February 2, 2007, guess what came along? World of Warcrack Warcraft, of course! For nearly a year and a half I have been obsessed with this game. For those who understand game lingo, I have that 71 Hunter, a 70 Druid, another 70 Hunter, a 70 Warlock, and a 68 Death Knight. I consider myself fairly accomplished at my addiction.

Over the course of this long, grueling period of time, I have gone through several men. The first lasted a couple months before he stopped talking to me ; irony is bittersweet. The second turned into a terrible mess when I found that he had a girlfriend and was cheating on her with me, the third was simply too annoying and prone to start arguments. The fourth I am currently with now - he's several years older than me. I love him dearly, but sometimes I feel I never get noticed any more. He can't really see the tension between us, so most of my time is spent away from him.

Everything else is minuscule ; normal. I wish something interesting would happen. Right now it's the same routine being bashed into my skull repeatedly ; Wake up, school, watch anime and hang with friends, World of Warcraft or read/draw/write, sleep. I feel untextured ; a smooth nothing amongst a sea of people. They don't see me ; I am invisible nothing. I am let down by society as a whole.

So why am I here, you ask? It is not for entertainment ; nor is it my pitiful weeping and begging to be let back into the social group. It is merely an apology and my status if you care. I apologize for causing all this distraught heartache and needless drama. Perhaps I'm better off not plaguing your normal lives.

That is all.
Bailare sin ti a mi lado sola estoy pero divina.

[.PK.]

Holy shit, it's you!

Come back. I've missed you a lot. ;-;

Mouldy dolphin hats!

[OrangeBoxers]

wow nostalgia trips holy shiiiiit