--Tattered Wings--

[Frozentears016]

Ive been dealing with things pretty good..i mean ive cut a few times, but not super bad, but i guess because i've been keeping everything in and all its building up.. the place i work at is trying to get me to quit..theyre literally doing everything to get rid of me because i told them working 9 1/2 hrs in one day with no break when i have classes and tests the next day is insane..the end of the semester is really soon and my speech class grade is probably a B because the tests are killing me..the guy that raped me my senior year will not stopp calling and texting me..my aunt had to be shocked back to life the other week from od'ing bc shes sad her daughter is having to go live with her dad even though she's addicted to pain killers and its partially for the best if she doesnt kill herself..the same aunt isnt answering anyones calls right now and she has her daughter with her so no telling what happened or if theyre even alive.my moms mom is in the hospital..literally dying..she has copd and ways about 93 lbs..i just know if something happens to her Lesley (the aunt that is addicted to pain killers) wont last long with her and her daughter gone..plus I love my nanny to death..and to top it all off my dad is a big time jerk,hes not physically abusive,but hes definitely verbally abusive. he puts down my mom all the time,barely talks to me,and sometimes talks to me sister. hes all about money and hates that my mom and i take so much money up because we have 'problems'. to be honest i dont even really know him..half of my childhood was spend with my mom and her mom and her step dad. im still really hurt that when i got letters in the mail asked to join my schools phi theta alpha or whatever and that i am on the presidents list for having a high gpa he said nothing at all..i keep a grudge for way to long..
im trying not to do anything..and probably wont atleast until Friday since my little cousin (the one i absolutely adore, Ashlynn) and her mom (my moms other sister) are staying with us..
sorry for going on for so long..even if no one reads this i just needed to vent,hoping itll help somehow..

[exhausted tears]

I'm sorry that you're going through so much right now...I hate when everything that could go wrong, does...

Where do you work? Is it possible for you to find a different job that would be more understanding about school and the fact that you have a life outside of work? Just make sure you keep putting school first. :)

Have you heard anything from your aunt? I really hope she and her daughter are okay...I hope your nanny is okay, too.

Stay strong, Sarah. I know it's not easy, but you're not alone in this. You know where to find me if you ever need to talk. I'm really glad you came here to let everything out. Keep doing that, okay? Take care of yourself.

[Frozentears016]

I work at Rudys (a barbque restraunt). I remember when I was being interviewed they asked me what one downfall of mine is and I said I have low self esteem and they said oh dont worry, we get rid of all the assholes..umm hello!! Y'ALL, the MANAGERS are the only assholes!!
My aunt and cousin ended up being ok thankfully. and my nanny..well, im to scared to go see her in the hospital to face the fact that shes barely alive..

But good thing is I didnt hurt myself, my cousin and aunt left yesterday morning..Ashlynn made everything ok for the time being :)

Thanks so much for caring, hope you have a good wknd :)

[Frozentears016]

I quit Rudyssss!! I felt so relieved when I walked out there no longer an employee lol..lame i know.
I have a temporary job at my schools bookstore which is pretty boring and slow..but i like the 3 other people i work with and theyre definitely not rude or anything.
things are going pretty good as of now except with my aunt is another story..but im trying to focus on myself..for once

[exhausted tears]

I'm sorry I haven't been around here in awhile...It's always the fault of (fluff)friends. ;) I'm so glad that you quit your job and got one that would be a lot more understanding of the fact that you have schoolwork to do. While I was in college I worked for my school as well, and it definitely helped. I could pretty much have off whenever I needed to. :) It makes me happy to know that things are going so much better for you right now. Just make sure you keep taking care of yourself.

[Frozentears016]

LOL, dont worry! Same here! I need to go to rehab because of fluff friends bc im waaayy to addicted..!!
Thanks so much for caring :)