College etc. :s

[SilentNoise]

I'm kinda slowly driving myself insane about this.. ><

Buut. How is college compared to school?
To be honest i'd rather not go at all but my parents say i have to so....yeah ._.

I'l probably find out how it is fairly soon, but nyeh any replys would be appreciated ^^


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[SilentNoise]

Erm okie...

Well went to the college I picked on monday...That was terrible. I ended up sitting by myself for over 4 hours and felt lonely depressed and a idiot :s

I quickly switched over to the other one i planned to go to which was alot more friendly and I had a couple of friends going too, so it started off good ^^

Though on thursday when i got up i felt pretty ill, after forcing down some breakfast it later came back up again (sorry for the disgusting image going through your head o-o) but i went in...I still felt awful but i sorta ignored it.

Today I had that same thing, i got up had a little bit of water, didn't want to risk breakfast then took my vitamin pill and kalms and later they came back up x_x

I'm thinking i've managed to somehow regain my school phobia...Which is brilliant .__. in the sarcastic way of course o-o The annoying thing is i'm not all that nervous etc. anymore...So its kinda confusing :s After effects of worrying like mad possibly x_x

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[SilentNoise]

K...Well its saturday and I feel alot better...

Meaning its school phobia, or something along those lines x-x (college phobia?!)

.___. I thought i was over this ><

[Rosie]

Hi!

So sorry I haven't been around the forums to welcome you and say hi! =)

Sorry to hear your time at college hasn't been the best so far. I don't think saying it's college phobia is the best idea, because it'll just convince you that college will be the same as school and we all know that we can feel fear and anxiety even when nothing is actually wrong!

I've been going to college for a little over two years now, although I'm painfully aware every college is totally different! But even though I've found college a LOT better than school (I've actually managed to attend and enjoy it) I still get days when I wake up and feel the old fear creeping back in and I don't understand it. There were times in class when I'd suddenly have a panic attack and tell myself "Oh no, it's just like school." But I've found that concentrating on other things means I get through it.

I know I'm saying all this and you're probably thinking, "Well good for you, but that doesn't help me!" I hate sounding so cliched. =) I can only suggest trying some of the School Survival tips we have on the site and thinking to yourself what makes college better or at least different from school?

There's nothing worse than sitting on your own and it's one of those things that make me really anxious, so when I have to I usually take deep breaths and I watch what other people are doing. Not in a "I'm a freaky staring stalker" way! But taking an interest in the people around me distracts me from the thought that they are taking an interest in me.

I know how you feel though, my first week at college I had the unpleasant fact that I was going to be sharing a college class with two of the people who gave me such a hard time at school, but I had to give college a chance to be different.

Let us know how things are going. =) Hope you feel better, but don't be afraid to tell us if you're not.

Rosie

[SilentNoise]

(sorry about replying late ><)
Hi, and no problem ^^
Yeah x-x I agree with the thinking its the phobia and causing it. Not a smart idea ^^;

I suppose though the fact I'm finding college incredibly difficult doesn't help either. I've already been on this risk register thing and I've been considering dropping one of my subjects (biology x-x) for some time due to the stress (i'm not the most organized person :s)

Things were going actually pretty alright for a while though recently i've found myself getting fairly depressed...

Thanks for the help though =o