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WHEN YOU SEE MY FACE, I HOPE IT GIVES YOU HELL

WHEN YOU WALK MY WAY, I HOPE IT GIVES YOU HELL

teddy was curled up on his window seat, his knees tucked to his chest. he plucked at his mismatched socks with one hand and tugged at his hair with the other. his favorite volume of 14th century poetry lay ignored at his feet as he looked out of the window, willing for some kind of distraction to draw him out of his thoughts. for the entire afternoon he did nothing but bake, bake and ... more baking. the entire room smelt of pomegranate tea, blueberry and m&m cookies, caramel muffins and cheese cakes. he had struggled and almost dragged all the food back to his dorm room, offering some to people he met in the hallways, but they only served to remind him of why he was trying to occupy himself with a whole afternoon's worth of baking in the first place. taking a look at the grapevine was a bad decision, and teddy gave a shake of head as his thoughts wandered off in the wrong direction once more. teddy pulled his thoughts up short with a wince, pulling harder at his hair, he really needed to control his emotions and keep them in check.

"i don't care," he muttered, his lips forming a pout as he glared at a random pigeon flying across the school field, "i really don't." a glance at his light reflection on the window was enough of a jab and a sharp slap to the face, and his eyebrows furrowed as his shoulders slumped in defeat. of course he was lying to himself, he did care. whenever it came to his friends, especially christopher, he would always care. it wasn't a small matter, and it wasn't being kept under the wraps either, the whole school was talking about it. teddy knew who mr valmont was, of course, everyone talked about the good looking teacher when he first started his teaching career in st. jude's. a teaching career that might be flushed down the drains, his mind corrected, drawing another exasperated sigh from teddy. his thoughts were being mean too, he told himself, trying to fight the urge to climb back to his bed, get himself buried underneath his pillow mountain and just sleep the day away. "actually, that sounds like a good idea," he said, ignoring the grumbling of his stomach at the smell of his baked goods as he scrambled off his window seat. he was about to climb onto his bed when some commotion outside his room startled him, causing him to nearly fall backwards as he tripped over his own left foot. he let out a fearful squeak as the door was thrown open, throwing himself on the bed and grabbing a pillow, placing it in front of him hastily as a shield. "i am armed!" he shouted, trying to sound brave even though he was shaking like a leaf.

TAGGED FOR COTI / 489 WORDS / NOT VERY GOOD, BUT...AH WELL :)

NICK @ ATF & CAUTION 2.0

DON'T REALLY KNOW WHAT'S THE NORM TAKE ALL THE FLOWERS OFF THE CHAIR, NO ONE KNOWS THAT YOU'RE THERE.

		christopher leaned back in his chair and stared blankly at the computer. fuck. westin valmont was going to think that he told someone and that wasn’t true in the slightest. he kept their secret though tight lips afraid of ruining the good thing that he’d started a while back with his teacher. though their student and teacher relationship would have been deemed inappropriate, there was one thing that needed to be cleared up. westin hadn’t started it. the first move was actually made by christopher who went to see him about a fake paper and then slowly found his ways on his knees. from there the rest was history and who would ever turn down him? he was perfect in every regard and that was the absolute truth. quickly reaching for his cell the other started pounding out words on the keypad and typing the following statement: it wasn’t me. i promise. i’ll fix this. with that he logged into the site and quickly defended his honor which surprisingly worked very well as others came to his aide. mr. valmont was a respectable teacher and wouldn’t dare do anything like this. once he was finished with a couple posts, christopher contacted the dean and told them about the article and how none of that was true. she quickly agreed with him and said the story was circumstantial. there was no pictures, no proof, and usually when it was true both parties tried hiding away from the world. in their case both of them had contacted her directly and vowed that she’d do her best to get the article taken down. success, he thought. with that the call ended and christopher leaned back in his chair and knew that he had to talk with someone. anyone would do but not just anyone was acceptable. the only other person that could handle this would be teddy and with that he pulled a shirt over his head and ran from his room like that of a banshee to seek out the other. easier said than done as he followed the fragment halls to the room where the smell led and with that he finally arrived. busting through the door after shoving a girl out of his way, christopher dived for the bed and landed right beside the other. fuck he’d been lucky, he thought as he rolled over onto his side and looked up at the other shaking and shielding himself. ”no need to get physical…..i’m harmless!” he exclaimed as he reached for the pillow and took it from the other one while bringing it to his chest. ”hope you don’t mind that i came over here unexpectedly.” he said calmly, his smile still present. everything i adore, he's everything i adore. i'm just done. i'm just done. same old line, i am fine. drown me out. it hurts, allowed. the world is a dark shade of red, here is the life that i bled. he's everything i know, he's everything i would want.

WHEN YOU SEE MY FACE, I HOPE IT GIVES YOU HELL

WHEN YOU WALK MY WAY, I HOPE IT GIVES YOU HELL

not feeling at all safe with his only defensive weapon being a pillow, the petite brunette was strategizing, planning to, if it turns out so be worst case scenario, throw whatever he could find at his attacker as a form of distraction before making a quick run for it. he was actually getting ready for a drastic course of action when he caught a glimpse of the face that has joined him on his bed. with a start, teddy realized that the 'intruder' was only christopher, just the one he had been trying to not think about for the whole morning. not too happy about being scared out of his mind by the boy in question, the smaller boy gave him a glare and a small shove, both feeble attempts, of course, but at least his displeasure has been somewhat expressed. he gave a tiny scoff as chris declared that he was harmless. with his crash-and-burn tendencies, he was anything but that. teddy really didn't want to think just how many were unfortunate enough to get in the blonde's way while he was storming here. "c - crashing into my room and onto my pillow fort is n - not a harmless action," he sniffed, eyes meeting the other's. he managed to last just a minute more before his bad mood deflated like a balloon with multiple holes in it. he couldn't actually stay mad at anyone for long, let alone the bright eyed boy on the bed with him.

with his weapon taken away from him, he promptly turned and grabbed yet another one from beside him, along with a white blanket, and hugged them to him. he returned chris' smile and gave a casual shrug in reply to what he said. of course he didn't mind people coming over, expected or not, he just minded them nearly breaking his door down and storming in like they were launching an attack on him. such violent visits often terrified him to death, but no matter how many times he told them not to do that, they still couldn't help it. chris was almost as bad as tanner, and teddy could only resign to fate as his pleas fell on deaf ears. "w - well, you are here now, what is it?" he asked, snuggling his pillow and burying half his face in it, leaving only his eyes staring at chris, awaiting his reply. unfortunately, he had a hunch what his friend would say, and he tried his best to swallow the unfamiliar bitterness rising with him. he was a good friend, and he would be sure to listen to whatever it was that chris wanted to talk to him about to the best of his abilities. with that established, teddy gave an inaudible sigh and shifted closer to chris, stuffing the pillow between the two of them before burying his face in the taller boy's chest. "i'm - i'm listening," he muttered as he allowed himself to get comfortable with the position he was in.

TAGGED FOR COTI / 511 WORDS / PILLOW-SQUISHES HA!

NICK @ ATF & CAUTION 2.0

DON'T REALLY KNOW WHAT'S THE NORM TAKE ALL THE FLOWERS OFF THE CHAIR, NO ONE KNOWS THAT YOU'RE THERE.

		there were things about his friends about that confused him. the group was so very different and there were things that he’d never understand about them as a whole. it was like their sole purpose in life was to confuse him with their emotions but he let them be. he wasn’t the most normal person either and it wouldn’t be fair to pass off such judgments, when he was the craziest of them all. if he wasn’t running around naked on his dorm floor or throwing pudding filled water balloons from the roof of the school, then he wasn’t right in his mind. crazy simply radiated from the teenager and every single voice that lingered deep within his mind would agree with that statement. hearing the other talking about him being full of intent to harm, he laughed out loud, while shaking his head in every direction. christopher could never hurt someone because that wasn’t in his nature. every action was meant to be playful, lighthearted, and amusing. he loved making people smile and someone that needed to lighten up with the little boy sitting next to him. ”i can help you rebuild your pillow fort because you’ll probably need these.” he said as he moved forward slightly, pushing the sleeves of his shirt up and brandishing his muscles before planting a kiss on the smooth skin. he knew the other wouldn’t take very well to his joke and would most likely be peeved that he was being so open but he couldn’t help it. not right now, anyways, not when there was something on his chest that was begging to be told to someone. his only hope though, was that his best friend in this entire school could keep his secret and not judge him for his actions on seducing one of the school’s hottest teachers. the same teacher that he had plans to see this afternoon at his apartment but now thought best to postpone the visit. feeling the other boy rest against his chest, christopher looked down at him and bit his bottom lip as nerves took over him. ”well if i tell you this, you have to promise that you won’t judge me or tell anyone else?” he said softly, searching the younger man’s face for some sign of betrayal or distrust but he knew that he’d never find that. no matter what he told himself teddy wasn’t the kind of person that would turn his back on him and that only further soothed his weary mind. everything i adore, he's everything i adore. i'm just done. i'm just done. same old line, i am fine. drown me out. it hurts, allowed. the world is a dark shade of red, here is the life that i bled. he's everything i know, he's everything i would want.

WHEN YOU SEE MY FACE, I HOPE IT GIVES YOU HELL

WHEN YOU WALK MY WAY, I HOPE IT GIVES YOU HELL

throughout the years, teddy grew to be a great listener. no matter what problems he had to deal with, he was always there to lend a listening ear for his friends. he supposed his lips were often sealed so tight, people just felt comfortable talking to him about things they rarely told others. if only he could only bring himself to do the same with his siblings and friends, he thought. of course, he couldn't help but smile along as his dear friend gave a laugh at his words, not at all daunted by the slightly harsh tone that he tried to adopt. at the suggestion to help rebuild his pillow fort, he gave a considering pause before nodding. "you can't just think that it's an easy task, you know?" he replied, giving his pillows a quick look before turning back to christopher, his expression serious, as though he was a wise old man giving an important lecture, teaching a so very important lesson. "it is always important to place all the pillows such that it offers both protection and comfort," he explained, giving another pause to roll at his friend's gesture of kissing his own arm. who does that, seriously? "you can't just pile them up anyway you want, it has to be a close knitted circle with maximum softness, and in any position, you'd feel cuddled by the pillows." he gave an awkward pat on one of the pillows as he finished, eyes wide and perfectly focused on getting that across to christopher. pillow forts were just that precious to him.

as the seemingly casual conversation took a slight plunge, teddy could easily see just how something was nagging at christopher. he just wasn't as upbeat and excitable as he always was, and lacing his fingers together, teddy waited for christopher to tell him just what he barged into the room to say. looking up at his friend's face from the position he was in, his eyes were locked on the lip biting, a nervous habit that the two of them shared. at the question that asked for no judging from his side and total secrecy, he held a hand up and quickly crossed his heart, the gesture being a familiar one that he often did. "of course i'll give you that promise, you know i would never do any of these two," he muttered, giving christopher a soft smile, one that didn't exactly reach his eyes because of the feeling he had with regards to the topic that had yet to be revealed. reaching out a hand, he gave christopher's right hand a soft squeeze, signaling for him to go on and just say whatever that was clearly eating at him.

TAGGED FOR COTI / 462 WORDS / SORRY THIS TOOK SO LONG D:

NICK @ ATF & CAUTION 2.0

DON'T REALLY KNOW WHAT'S THE NORM TAKE ALL THE FLOWERS OFF THE CHAIR, NO ONE KNOWS THAT YOU'RE THERE.

		christopher was a man with many friends but that didn’t mean that he would tell them anything. he was careful and precise in everything that he did in this world and that was simply because of his upbringing. not only that but his schizophrenia was something that hindered most social interactions for him, so when he felt the need to tell someone something he’d quickly do it. or else his mind would talk him out of and that was the last thing he needed, especially right now. breathing in deeply, christopher watched the other as a boyish smile pulled at the corners of his lips. he loved being around teddy and for this very reason. everything he did was nervous, anxious, and it forced him to take a deep breath of fresh air. watching as the other told him that it was not easy to build the perfect pillow fort - he laughed with a perfect understanding of what he was talking about. ”as fascinating as all this pillow talk is, you don’t need such things.” he said with a faint glow clouding his features. sure it was important to know how to protect yourself but he’d never let anything happen to one of his friends, especially teddy. ”besides you have me and i can comfort better then a pillow and protect you far better.” he corrected the other as he reached forward and draped his hand around the boys back to scoop him up, only to pull him closer to him. showing him easy a pillow fort could be violated. at least in his arms the other was safe, secure, and he’d fight far longer to protect him. as he felt the heat of the other against him, christopher robin glanced around the room for a sign that what he was about to say was wrong. confessing his darkest sins about how he’d seduced a teacher into sleeping with him wasn’t the most graceful thing in the world but he felt like he was betraying the other. he knew his younger friend would try and correct his behavior and tell him that it was wrong, that he should report the much older man but he couldn’t do that. mr. valmont hadn’t done anything until christopher practically forced him to have sex. it was that damn need to seek out physical interactions and now it was biting him in the ass. ”i know that you wouldn’t but you can never be too sure, you know?” he said softly while looking at the other with concern in his stare. it was nothing but the truth and he didn’t know how he could simply come clean with it. ”have you ever done something that you know was wrong? however you’re not ashamed about it but you know you need to talk about it?” he questioned the other curious to hear his response. everything i adore, he's everything i adore. i'm just done. i'm just done. same old line, i am fine. drown me out. it hurts, allowed. the world is a dark shade of red, here is the life that i bled. he's everything i know, he's everything i would want.

WHEN YOU SEE MY FACE, I HOPE IT GIVES YOU HELL

WHEN YOU WALK MY WAY, I HOPE IT GIVES YOU HELL

when the older boy pointed out that pillow forts were not a necessity, teddy was just about to start an argument to prove him wrong. he felt strongly about pillow forts, for they were a safe haven to him, and without them, he would not know just how he would survive. he remembered just how his father would buy him pillows for his fort building when he was a kid, and how his brothers would try to squeeze with him whenever it was a cold stormy night. those were the best days, and he felt the warmth and comfort the pillows and his older brothers had offered even till now. they never told him to grow out of it, unlike his mother, and they were always there to praise him whenever he told them about the slight differentiation in the arrangement of pillows in his latest creation. as for his mother, she was always quick to clear his pillows up, saying that such a thing was ridiculously childish and stupid, ignoring the hurt looks he would get whenever she did so. it was not as if she needed the pillows, really, and even though nobody said it, they all thought that she took them away only because she did not want teddy to have them, to have his pillow forts.

he was startled from his thoughts as he felt hands around him and nearly gave a terrified shout before his mind caught up with the fact that those were christopher’s hands. still tense, he tried to calm his racing heart as he played back the words his friend spoke. he was pulled closer and it was some sort of weird embrace between the two of them, but it was harmless enough for him to relax slightly into the older boy’s hold. his eyes were locked on christopher’s face, looking out for familiar signs and spotted them quick enough. he is very nervous about this, teddy thought, and his heart took another dip as that almost confirmed just what this whole thing was about. ”w - whatever it is, i - i won’t tell, i - i swear on my life, he muttered, keeping his tone soft as he tried to coax chistopher into a calmer state. meeting his gaze, teddy then tentatively wrapped his arms around chris. instinct led him to give his friend a hasty pat before he pulled back slightly. at the two questions christopher asked, teddy’s eyebrows furrowed as he considered them carefully. ”i - i believe everyone has, chris,” he replied, looking down at his lap for a moment, ”i - it must be something wrong in - in others’ eyes, b - but still something t - that you enjoy, and - and something you refuse to g - give up without a fight, right? s - something special?” with that said, he leaned into their tangled limbs once more, pressing his forehead against chris’, eyes still locked as he continued, ”as - as long as you don’t regret it, a - and it’s not hurting anyone, i - i’m willing to stand behind you. no matter what it is.”

TAGGED FOR COTI / 543 WORDS / AWWW

NICK @ ATF & CAUTION 2.0

DON'T REALLY KNOW WHAT'S THE NORM TAKE ALL THE FLOWERS OFF THE CHAIR, NO ONE KNOWS THAT YOU'RE THERE.

		he believed in all things physical and it was hard for him to have faith in something that he’d never experienced before in this life. growing up with a mother who was ignorant to the ways of the world and the people in it, chris found it terribly confusing to walk with blind faith. putting such conviction into something that could ultimately destroy him wasn’t his style and like a broken machine, his mind wouldn’t let him compute that. in order to survive the trail and tribulations, chris would have to be brave and take a leap of faith, forcing himself to experience everything that came his way. if he wanted to know what something was like, he wouldn’t take someone else’s word on it. instead, he’s jump into the mix and shake things up a bit. that’s how his relationship with how the students of this school started up. he would have never met any of these friends at this school, unless he made it his mission to take in their kinship. the truth could be said in compliance to his crush that he fostered on his teacher. there was something about him, something that he’d missed out on in this life that attracted him to the much older man and with that he made his moved, manipulated the situation, and slept with him in his classroom. it was intense and passionate, christopher had even made plans with him to carry out the actions again, which meant that he was only further digging him deeper into this mess. though he thought his choices were valid and proven to be strong solid ones. christopher was like any other human being on this planet. he had doubts, had fear and that’s where he needed the advice of his best friend. the one person in this world who wouldn’t spare his feelings because he was scared of making him sad. (though he never thought the other could even do such a thing and that was the absolute truth.) as the male made motions to fight off his comforting arms, christopher ignored the others nervous ticks and took the comfort of his petite frame against him. ”i know that you won’t tell. you’re not that kind of person, you’re my best friend.” he said as he sighed in all honest. teddy was his confidant and that was all that he could ever ask for from the other male. feeling the weight of the others forehead against his own in a somewhat intimate manner, christopher listened to the other give him advice about something special. something that he’d never simply give up without a fight and something told him that westin might be a fight he’d be willing to complete. naivety clouded his judgment though and with that he heaved a heavy sigh before continuing on. ”okay I’m going to tell you because I needed to get this off my chest.” spoke the teenager softly. ”I slept with someone and not just anyone teddy. He’s a teacher and that stupid blog knows about it. I had to lie to the dean about it….I can’t get him fired…” he said softly, knowing the other would probably think the other was abusing his power as a authority figure. ”it’s my fault though, I seduced him.” his cold eyes examined the others. He wanted to know how the other would respond to this news. The other had stated that he’d stand behind him no matter what as long as he wanted the action. So he sat their holding the other tightly, hoping that the others integrity would be honored. everything i adore, he's everything i adore. i'm just done. i'm just done. same old line, i am fine. drown me out. it hurts, allowed. the world is a dark shade of red, here is the life that i bled. he's everything i know, he's everything i would want.

WHEN YOU SEE MY FACE, I HOPE IT GIVES YOU HELL

WHEN YOU WALK MY WAY, I HOPE IT GIVES YOU HELL

teddy knew just how big of a mess his friend was capable of getting into, and that was proven by several instances when christopher dabbled with the wrong things, messed with the wrong people, but he had never questioned his loyalty in his friend. no matter what, the younger boy knew that he would, without hesitation, stand beside his friend and offer as much support as he could give. it was the least he could do, considering just how he could not even imagine life without the other, and just how many times christopher had been there for him. teddy knew that being friends with someone like himself was a tough matter, he always needed people to take care of him, to send reassurances his way just so that he would not break down over petty things, a broken pencil for instance. he troubled his good friends enough to even consider going against something that they did, something they had decided on, and regardless of whatever had been said by others, he knew better than to leave them in the lurch. it was a basic principle, he would never do what he would wish for people to never do to him.

seeing just how tentative christopher was, how unlike his usual self he was being, teddy was, without a doubt, very worried for his dearest friend. the only thing he could possibly do was to just listen to what he had to say, and try his very best to help out. with that in mind, he gave his friend the time and silence he needed to start talking. as chris went on, teddy's mind finally caught up and he recalled the article from the website named "grapevine", the one he had checked out several times just because it has been mentioned by so many people. his eyes were wide as his friend confirmed the rumors, confirmed that he had actually done something that few could condone, and teddy's face heated up as his mind raced. he was about to say something about the matter when christopher continued, and the words about to leave his mouth were immediately swallowed back down. "c - chris," he muttered, not really sure where to begin. knowing himself and knowing the other just as well, he found his voice in a rush, not wanting christopher to assume that he was backing out on his promise just because it was no small incident. "i - i won't tell, promise," he continued, eyes seeking christopher's as he gave the other's hand a comforting squeeze. "i'm not too sure j - just what i should say, but i - i do know that y - you did nothing w - wrong." he explained, his mind filled with many different words that were trying to come together and form a valid response to what his friend had just revealed. "d - did you like it?" he finally posed the question that mattered the most, even though his cheeks were stained a tomato red as he did so. such a topic was almost unfamiliar territory for him, furthermore, this was christopher and mr valmont he was talking about here, but despite his discomfort, the brunette was determined to comfort chris to the best of his abilities.

TAGGED FOR COTI / 546 WORDS / AWWW

NICK @ ATF & CAUTION 2.0

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