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SHE SWEARS SHE'S OKAY
Don't need a witness to her feelings She watches them escape, the good ones get away So, cut and paste And the stitches of her feeling unraveling this way Makes her feel ashamed All around her people stare as she slowly falls apart Picking up pieces of her clumsy little heart It's hard to know where you're going When you don't know where to start But that's just life and that's the hardest part.
that little blue positive sign would be the end of aspen, she just knew it. her teeth dug into her lip - something she always seemed to do when she was aggravated with herself - and she put the pregnancy test down on the bathroom counter, feeling her heart sink into her stomach. she had been taking her birth control regularly, and there was no reason for her to be looking at that plus. but it was there, and she couldn't but help feel resentful that something as small and tiny as this could drastically affect and change her life. but it did. and it would.
after being late for two weeks, she had taken off work to go to purchase a pregnancy test, going off her instincts of the appropriate measures to take. and well, now that she knew, she couldn't help but feel like things were about to come crashing down on her and slade, everything they had built, and their schedules were going to shift, and adapt to this change. this change that had her looking down at her abdomen, completely terrified.
as upset as she tried to feel about it, she couldn't stop herself from looking in the mirror at her stomach and smiling, though there was no proof of her pregnancy. not yet, anyways. she thought about hiding it from slade, but she realized that would only lead to drama, and well, that just wasn't her thing anymore. with her hand still on her stomach, she picked up her phone, thumbing through her contacts until she found slade's name, sending him a quick text saying she loved him and missed him. with a content sigh, she slipped the phone into her jean pocket, deciding that she could at least do some baking. slade had been begging her to make her famous chocolate chip cookies for him recently, and well, now seemed like the perfect time to whip out her recipe and cook up some batches. before long, she was gathering the necessary ingredients, being sure to grab her favorite red wine to add to the cookies, after all, it was her special ingredient. just as she put the first batch into the oven, she grabbed the bottle and brought it up to her lips, about to take a drink before she realized that she couldn't. and with a smile, she put it back down on the counter, her excitement almost overwhelming her.
aspen was going to be a mother. something she had always been to most people, something she was actually good at. and just that thought alone had her sitting on the kitchen counter, clutching her abdomen in a way that a new mother would.
it wasn't until she pulled out the final batch that she heard the door unlocked, and she finally realized what time it was. she placed them on top of the stove, allowing them to cool before walking up to slade and welcoming him home with a kiss, happy to have him home. hi baby, i hope you had a good day. she smiled as she walked into the kitchen, pulling out a beer and cracking it open for him. she placed it on the table, next to a plate of her cookies and made a notion for him to sit down. she took a deep breath, somewhat wishing she could have just a sip of that beer to help calm her nerves. her hand reached across the table, taking one of his, and a smile crept across her face.
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it had certainly been a long day at work and slade was thankful to finally be holding the last conversation of his day. his patience was more or less shot, but he was trying to talk to mr so and so (his name wasn't important - it was some kid manager who wanted to speak to slade) without sighing and telling the kid to shut up. he absentmindedly was playing with a pen, clicking and unclicking the top of it, sketching stick figures on a piece of paper that might have been important and simply rolling it between his fingers. a faint buzz caught his attention and as the kid on the other end chattered away, slade picked up his cell phone, feeling his lips turn upward at the fact it was a text from aspen. it was cute, an 'i love you and miss you' text and he responded with something similar. he couldn't wait to get home and hug his girlfriend, to kiss her, and to simply sit back with a beer and a basketball game. "yeah, okay" he snapped into the phone, finally ready to cut the kid short. "i've heard enough. get more of a following and i'll think about and don't call me again to chat my fucking ear off like this - i'm a busy man. good bye." with a sigh, he hung up, not particularly caring that the kid was mid sentence. slade was known for his crass nature; if you were annoying him, he'd let you know and more often than not his temper flared before he could rein it in. but none of that mattered right now.
it was time to go home.
he was more than happy to call it a day and before he knew it, he was on his way home. it was strange to think that not that long ago, his life had been in complete shambles. he used to hate coming home - home had been empty, cold and lonely. but now? it was warm, inviting, relaxing. the way it should have been. so far, having aspen in his life hadn't been a mistake at all.
when he unlocked the door, he was immediately hit with the scent of fresh baked cookies and he felt the corners of his lips turn upwards. she had finally taken him up on his not so subtle begging for her chocolate cookies. what a perfect way to end his day - pigging out on his favorite snack. he shut the door behind him, kissing aspen in return as she greeted him. "it was alright," he said, almost surprised at how tired his voice sounded. "it was long and i've had to deal with a bunch of fucking idiots since nobody seems to be able to do shit on their own. how was yours?" he followed her into the kitchen and his eyes fell on a plate of cookies on the table. how. awesome. he sat as soon as she motioned him too, nodding a thanks her way for the beer. he didn't know what he had done to deserve this kind of treatment but he sure as hell wasn't complaining.
but then she sat across from him and took his hand; slade immediately set his beer down, looking at her with raised eyebrows. she seemed to be overly happy for some odd reason and, frankly, it kind of unnerved him. he was about to ask her what was wrong when she said two words he hoped he would never have to hear.
she was pregnant.
"what?" he asked, looking at her with disbelief. "aspen, april fools isn't even close. this isn't a funny joke." slade was definitely not the type of person who would be seen as a good father; he was impatient, loud and battling an alcohol addiction. he never had liked small children and him? the father of a baby? he could feel the universe laughing at him. so he pressed his lips together, feeling very much out of control and, honestly, terrified out of his fucking mind. this was too much for him. "how'd this even happen?" he sighed, pulling his hand away from her and planting his elbows on the table, rubbing his face with his hands, something he did when he had too much to deal with. and here he thought they were being safe...
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SHE SWEARS SHE'S OKAY
Don't need a witness to her feelings She watches them escape, the good ones get away So, cut and paste And the stitches of her feeling unraveling this way Makes her feel ashamed All around her people stare as she slowly falls apart Picking up pieces of her clumsy little heart It's hard to know where you're going When you don't know where to start But that's just life and that's the hardest part.
it wasn't too often aspen bothered slade at work, because she knew he tended to have no paitence for interruptions. but it was the least she could do before dropping this kind of news on him, and to be honest, she loved doing small things that she hoped made him smile. anything she could do to make him feel better. it was honestly amazing, how easily this was coming to aspen, she had been stupid enough to mess things up once, but now? she was pretty much the world's best girlfriend. sometimes she wondered if there was anything more she should expect from slade, somedays, she found her fantasizing about a simple little ring on her finger, one that would flash her attention when she'd be typing in appointments, one she could show her friends and giggle about. but so far, there wasn't much. but it was slade, after all. aspen didn't really bother getting her hopes up. but it didn't keep her from daydreaming.
with slade's arrival in their quaint little apartment, she felt as if the world were right. well, other then the fact that she was about to ruin his. she pushed the thought away, hoping for the best. maybe he'd be excited. she had to suppress a sigh, because lord knows that wasn't going to happen. he despised kids, and she knew he had no plan on having them, just like he probably had no plan on marrying her. this time, she allowed herself a sigh, and she allowed her lips to turn into a concerned frown as he spoke about his day. i'm sorry darling. i promise i'll help you relax. and i'll be sure to give everyone plenty to do tomorrow so they don't bother you. she smiled, and then paused when he asked about her day. how was her day? well, it had started out average, and then it slowly transitioned to stressful, to worried, to excited, and back to worried. it was alright, nothing special really. lie. a big big big fat lie.
now, she hadn't expected the man she loved to jump for joy at the news, but she hadn't exactly expected him to freak out as much as he was. suddenly, she felt as if it were her fault, and she sunk into her chair, looking over at him solemnly, her emerald eyes suddenly losing their shine, their excitement. maybe this wasn't something to be celebrated. maybe it was right of her to freak out about it, and worry that it could possibly be more problematic than she thought. aspen was born to be a mother, she knew it. there was nothing she was exceptional at really; other than taking care of people. that was her calling, and as she heard slade panicking, labeling this as a curse, she couldn't help but let her hand rest on her stomach, feeling guilty she thought it was a blessing.
i don't know.. she said quietly, feeling any bit of excitement drain out of her almost as quickly as her color. her skin was lacking it's shine, and she felt herself let out a heavy sigh, disappointed. it was obvious he wasn't ready for a kid, and hell, she probably wasn't either. but didn't the thought of a child of his own excite him at the least? i'm sorry.. it was a quiet, ashamed sorry. god, she felt so stupid for being so excited about this, when it seemed like it was the end of the world. maybe he was overreacting, maybe he would get comfortable with the idea, and be okay with it. maybe not. i didn't mean to spring this on you, i was just so excited.. her words were escaping her lips before she could think, and she couldn't seem to stop them. i thought you'd be excited too, but i guess not.
the sweetness of this afternoon had quickly soured, and she got up from the table, immediately immersing herself in starting dinner. it was the only thing she could do to mask the hurt she felt from slade. but it was what she should have expected, it was so incredibly stupid of her to expect anything else. her mind was traveling a mile a minute, and she was on auto pilot as she pulled out the chicken. it wasn't until she was placing it in the oven until she thought of the alternative. it would crush her, but if slade wasn't ready for a child, wouldn't this be best for him?
i won't keep it. she said quickly, looking over at him from the kitchen. i can see if i can get it taken care of. it's probably better that way. god, i'm so stupid sometimes. she put a hand to her forehead before she turned away from him, again occupying on the task of getting dinner ready. slade first, that's the way it should have been, and should always be. it'd be ridiculous of her to think their relationship would be anymore then that.
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slade had never really been the type of person to think of marriage. he had thought about it, once, back when he had first dated aspen. he had found himself actually toying with the idea, only to have this perfect world crash down on him. but now, things were finally running smoothly again and he had started playing with the idea again. marriage could possibly be something that could happen in the future. he wasn't opposed to the idea; if anything, he was just trying to be cautious. his heart had finally healed from everything he had put it through; he wanted to make sure that nothing like that would ever hurt him again before he decided to go through with all the hassle of finding a ring and proposing.
he immediately felt bad as aspen sunk into her chair. was she really that excited over the idea of having a baby? babies were annoying. they cried a lot. they puked everywhere. they looked like little aliens. he didn't find them cute or precious or anything similar to that, but then again slade was the very definition of a selfish human being. it was bad enough having a little sister, ainsley, to deal with, but a baby? the idea made him want to shudder. sure, the idea that this was his baby was sort of cool. but cool enough to commit to it for the next eighteen years? "aspen, don't apologize," he sighed. to be honest, her words sort of stung. he definitely wasn't thrilled at the idea, but he could eventually get used to it. he came from a family of four kids; he wasn't completely opposed to the idea of kids.
he just wasn't sure if he wanted his own sniveling brats roaming around the world. he was such a terrible role model...he watched her get up and move into the kitchen, immediately starting to prepare their dinner. he just sat at the table, his fingertips resting on the side of the beer. he needed to make a decision about this, and fast, because he knew that aspen would pretty much do whatever it was he asked.
her next words came as a surprise and he felt himself swallow, hard, and he stood up, pushing his chair away from him. slade walked over to her and stood closely behind her, letting his hands graze over the tops of her shoulders, giving them a soft gentle squeeze. "you know what," he said, softly, leaning forward to press a kiss to her cheek. "don't. we can keep it, okay? you aren't stupid for being excited about it. a baby is exciting." god, this was probably the most unselfish thing he had ever done and, honestly, it was sort of strange. but he wanted her to be happy, he really, really did. if he couldn't bring himself to marry her quite yet, he could at least let her have this baby. their baby. "i know i'm not really...the dad type, but i'll try. i want to try." he said, smiling at her as warmly as he could. "perrito would be happy to have somebody to play with and...my family will be stoked." he was trying to be positive about the whole situation, something that was hard for him. slade was definitely no optimist; if anything, he tended to be on the pessimistic side of things. but he was trying to try for aspen, he really was.
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SHE SWEARS SHE'S OKAY
Don't need a witness to her feelings She watches them escape, the good ones get away So, cut and paste And the stitches of her feeling unraveling this way Makes her feel ashamed All around her people stare as she slowly falls apart Picking up pieces of her clumsy little heart It's hard to know where you're going When you don't know where to start But that's just life and that's the hardest part.
long ago, aspen had learned better than to get her hopes up. she was easily crushed, and despite how cold and harsh she could be, it was all a facade. aspen was probably one of the most gentle, loving people possible, just ask anyone she had worked with. right after she and slade got back together, it was like someone turned on a light switch, and she was all sunshine and rainbows. it wasn't easy, but she did it. for her employees, for herself, for slade. she did what she could to fit into his life perfectly, doing anything and everything to make his life easier. well, except for tonight of course.
it had honestly been awhile since her heart had ached like this, and she felt herself getting frustrated - why had she gotten so damn excited? this was a bad thing, not a good thing. their company was just now peaking, and it required their attention now more than ever. they barely had enough time or energy to cuddle with each other now, adding a screaming, snotting baby to that mix and things could, and would only get worse. reason was starting to settle in, and she wasn't very much appreciating it. she hated when it came crashing down on her excitement, always forcing her to reconsider. though it wasn't as if she could reconsider this; it was a human being. their human being.
she hadn't even noticed slade had gotten up until she felt his hands on her shoulder, and his lips on her cheek. naturally, she let a smile grace her lips, but it widened as soon as he said she could keep it. she instantly turned around, wrapping her arms around his neck, and hugging him tightly. she was half ecstatic, and half shocked. shocked that he didn't bother to say a 'let me think about it', but a straight yes. her heart squeezed with excitement as she pulled away from him, crushing her lips onto his. it was obvious she was entirely grateful, and entirely excited. this was it, they were going to have a baby.
after having to pull herself away from those lips she loved so much, she wrapped her arms around his torso and put her forehead against his, unable to stop smiling. we're going to have a baby! she squealed before hugging him once again. so many thoughts were rushing through her mind, and if it hadn't been for the timer on the oven, she would have up and forgotten about dinner. she ushered him back to his seat, but not before planting some soft, gentle kisses on his cheek, on his neck, wherever she could, really. she hugged him from behind, kissing the top of his head. i love you so so much slade, and i'm sure you'll be an excellent father. she cooed, knowing that she had complete and total faith in him, despite what he was thinking.
but soon, she was back in the kitchen, singing soft melodies as she added twenty more minutes to the timer, and began slicing lettuce for their salad. aspen honestly hadn't been this excited about something for a long time, and she could feel her mind turning, already imagining a sweet little baby girl, or baby boy. she wished they'd resemble slade more than her, because he was so beautiful, and so kind. her sweet, sweet slade. i'm sure perrito will be happy to have someone to cuddle with, since daddy's been neglecting her. she teased, looking over at slade and raising an arched eyebrow in direction. she felt as if she were the luckiest woman in the world, and she had no one but slade to thank for that.
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a baby was going to make his already stress filled life more stressful. he was already at his wit's end and was constantly tired; all he wanted to do was sleep for hours, but he couldn't. he had to get up, go to work, and then come home and by the time he got home he just wanted to eat,shower and go to sleep. a baby would mean he would be even more tired. a baby would mean that his time with aspen would be drastically cut. a baby was going to force him to literally rethink his priorities. but, then again, he was almost thirty which was shocking in itself. it was about time that he settle down and start thinking about important things like marriage and babies and families. this baby was a little early but, he knew, that it wouldn't be the end of the world, regardless of what he thought. maybe this was the push he needed to clean his act up once and for all. he couldn't be constantly drunk around a baby. he couldn't be working his ass off all the time. being a dad was definitely going to be a challenge for him and he was having trouble deciding if he was ready to step up to the plate. he had nine months to think about it though. nine short months before he would be holding his son or daughter for the first time ever.
god, that was such a strange thought. his child was inside his girlfriend. fucking babies; their whole coming into existence was the strangest process to him. even though slade wasn't even sure if this was what he wanted, aspen's happiness more than made up for it. he couldn't remember the last time she had been this happy. he cheerfully kissed her back and wrapped his arms around her tightly, letting himself just enjoy the feeling of her in his arms. "yes," he said, finding himself smiling. "we are definitely going to be having a baby."
as she ushered him back to his seat, he went along willingly, sitting down and he found himself leaning into her kisses, enjoying the feeling of her lips against his skin. "i love you too," he said, looking up at her as she hugged him. "but i don't really know if i'll make an excellent father. i'm fucking terrified." he figured it would be best to be honest with her. letting her know that he was actually scared of of his mind might help her not be so pushy about things, right? he knew full well that the idea of being a father wasn't going to sink in until he saw the ultrasounds or until he held his screaming child in his arms for the first time. then he might actually feel himself step up to where he needed to be. but for now? he could hardly believe it.
"yeah, yeah, i know i've been neglecting her. don't remind me. i feel like a terrible person," slade said, biting into one of the cookies that he had left, forgotten, on the table. poor perrito. he was honestly surprised that that dog still even loved him; dogs really were loyal. "i promise i'll make time to cuddle the baby," he said, blinking in surprise at the fact he was already talking so naturally about it. he had so many questions to ask, like when she found out, how long she had been pregnant, when she was going to start getting a belly, when it would start moving. slade actually found himself getting excited - just slightly, of course, he was never going to admit of ever being ecstatic - and the more he let himself dwell on the idea, the more he actually found himself being okay with it. it was shocking, really. he doubted even owen would be able to handle the fact that he had agreed to this and he was actually beginning to become okay with the idea of a child. maybe it was aspen's infectious attitude that was making the idea seem okay to him. maybe it wasn't. whatever it was, slade found himself thankful for. this may have been unexpected, but maybe things weren't going to turn out so bad after all.
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SHE SWEARS SHE'S OKAY
Don't need a witness to her feelings She watches them escape, the good ones get away So, cut and paste And the stitches of her feeling unraveling this way Makes her feel ashamed All around her people stare as she slowly falls apart Picking up pieces of her clumsy little heart It's hard to know where you're going When you don't know where to start But that's just life and that's the hardest part.
if someone had told her three or four years ago that she'd be having slade's baby, she would have cackled loudly and told them to go get a fucking reality check. but now, as she stood in slade's kitchen, carrying slade's child, she believed it. with her whole heart. this was going to be it, they were really starting their lives together. he agreed to a child, which of course meant eighteen years more commitment. just the thought of having slade in her arms for that long made her heart melt. it only went to show that this baby was a blessing, even if slade couldn't see that now.
babies were a lot of hard work, but slade and aspen were familiar to working hard, and for working constantly. which really only proved that they could raise a child - together. it would prove to be difficult with their work schedules, but it wouldn't be the first time they had done the impossible. people had said they would never work out, that she'd ruin everything again. but here she was, hugging the man she loved dearly, now carrying his child. and she sure as hell wasn't going anywhere. she had a family to take care of.
excitement was overwhelming her and she had to fight to keep from jumping up and down and screaming like some teenager who had just gotten asked out to prom. deep in her heart she knew that this child would bring them so much joy, and so much love. and lord knows slade could use any extra joy and love he could receive. he deserved it.
his confession had stopped her in her tracks, and she looked over at him, completely understanding what he meant by being terrified. i'm scared too slade, but i know we can do it. you're so loving when you allow yourself to be. i know you'll be great. she smiled, loving the idea of him interacting with a baby. it wasn't often she got to watch slade act so sweet and kind to someone other than herself - and occasionally, perrito - and to be honest, the idea of him sitting with a baby in his arms melted her heart. he wasn't as big and mean as he tried to be.
she was about to object to his cookie eating, due to the fact that dinner was near done, but she clamped her mouth shut, deciding to let him enjoy his spoils. i'm sure she understands, babe. besides, i give her enough love for the three of us. she grinned, already accounting for the baby. it was so entirely exciting, and she knew that it would be torture waiting nine months before meeting her shining light. his next statement made her put the chopping knife down in shock, completely taken by surprise by what he said. he seemed so okay with the idea of a baby, and that was more than she had expected, especially this early on. aspen grinned at him, winking at him, and until baby's born i guess that means you'll just have to cuddle me twice as much. she beamed at him before scooping the lettuce into a bowl and popping in a few tomatoes. thank god she had moved in with slade, she didn't know how he survived on top ramen and old soup. now, she spoiled him, making a range of different steaks and roasts - all lean meat, of course - along with healthy salads to make up for the neglect to his body for those years she hadn't been able to cook for him. quickly, she pulled the chicken out of the oven, placing a breast on both of their plates and then placing it in front of him. not thinking, she was about to pour herself a glass of wine, but then stopped, frowning a little. well. she said, filling her wine glass with water. she sat across from him, raising an eyebrow at him before smirking as she took a bite of salad, chewed and then swallowed. you know, i heard sex is incredible when you're pregnant. typical aspen.
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slade was known for the fact that he did not give second chances. any second chance from him was rare, so the fact that he had taken aspen back was enough of a shock alone, let alone he allowed her back into his business life as a partner once again. four years ago, had somebody told him he would be back with aspen and she was pregnant with his child, he probably would have laughed and told them to fuck off - he didn't give second chances, not to people who ripped his heart out, stomped on it and then spit on it to boot. but somewhere in his tiny little heart, he had found the ability to forgive her. he forgave her, he took her back, and now? he was finally able to trust her again and they were having a baby. he was still having trouble coming to terms with that, mostly because he was just scared. scared he was going to fuck up. scared the stress of the situation would make him go back to his heavy drinking habits after he finally started to get control of them.he knew he was better than that, after all he was a pro at hard work, but a child was different. he couldn't just lock his office door and walk away from his stress; a child would be tugging at his pants,begging for his attention, crying because they couldn't have ice cream before dinner. but, at the same time, a tiny part of slade wanted to be wanted like that. he wanted somebody to think he was the greatest thing in the world. he wanted to prove to himself that he wasn't a terrible person.
slade felt himself shift uncomfortably at her words. he never really would describe himself as loving, it was one of those descriptions that made him feel awkward, just because he tried so hard to hide that part of his personality. he definitely had a weakness for making his girlfriend smile and feel good; she was one of the few people he would go out of his way to make happy and one of the few people he allowed to see his soft side. she was typically kind enough not to mention it, but when she did, he just felt weird. he didn't think of himself as being sweet and kind. he liked coming off as cold and bigger than he was - shit got done that way. "i guess," he said, shrugging lightly. "i'll try, okay? that's really the best i can give you. i promise i'll try." he hoped he'd be great. after so many years of avoiding serious commitment, it was leering at him.
"oh i know you do," slade said, leaning back in his chair a little bit. they had bought perrito together and he knew how much his baby loved her mama. "i think she likes you better than me and you know she won't want to leave the baby alone when its born." he could already see it now, perrito and the baby sitting on the couch with perrito curled up beside it. the image was almost too cute for him, but it made him smile a bit. it needed to happen. as aspen winked at him, he let his smile widen. he had no idea why he was handing them out so freely right now; maybe he was more ready for this child than he thought. maybe that's why he was so happy. "you know i'm down for cuddles." he said, picking at a loose thread on his shirt. contrary to popular belief, he was actually always down to cuddle. he just liked the feeling of closeness with somebody he loved, especially after having so many years without her. he nodded his thanks as she placed food in front of him - delicious, amazing looking food. if there was one thing he appreciated, it was the fact she was such a good cook. slade could cook...simple things. he was just too busy to learn and with her being so willing to do it, he just accepted it thankfully. he cut himself a bite of chicken, sighing happily at how good it was, and then brought his blue eyes to her green and laughed. "is that so?" he asked, raising his eyebrows. "i guess we'll find out for ourselves, won't we." leave it to aspen to bring up sex at the dinner table. she was lucky he loved her and, hell, he was lucky she even loved him.
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SHE SWEARS SHE'S OKAY
Don't need a witness to her feelings She watches them escape, the good ones get away So, cut and paste And the stitches of her feeling unraveling this way Makes her feel ashamed All around her people stare as she slowly falls apart Picking up pieces of her clumsy little heart It's hard to know where you're going When you don't know where to start But that's just life and that's the hardest part.
sure, aspen could be a little overbearing at times, but she really meant for the best. especially when it came to slade. ever since she'd been his whole exception to the no second chances rule, she had centered her universe around the beautiful man, doing anything she could to bring a rare smile to his face. it really bothered the little pixie girl that he never smiled, especially considering she was constantly smiling and laughing. though, some of it was out of professional courtesy, but it was all the same. slade didn't bother with flattering his clients with smiles and laughs like she did, and a part of that didn't bother her, because that meant his smiles and laughs were exclusively for her and perrito.
it was a bit awkward, how he had digested her words, and her smile had faltered when he spoke, until she let her lips calm into a smooth line. he would try, and that's all she could really ask of him. that's all i ask. she smiled softly, tucking the invading blonde hair behind her ear before stuffing another bite of salad in her mouth, thankful for the fact that it offered an excuse for silence. aspen had a way of ruining moments by talking too much, her mind babble escaping easily through her lips. so instead of talking, she crunched away, pleased with how tonight seemed to be going.
a real smile graced her lips when slade spoke about perrito and the baby, and it widened as soon as she noticed the faint smile on his lips. i can only imagine what trouble perrito and our child will get into. she laughed, getting chills at the thought of having a child that's her and slade's. sure, she'd accepted it, but god, it was entirely so exciting. it was so thrilling now that slade was somewhat calm and looking forward to this event; and it only added to her excitement. i can't wait until i'm showing. she admitted, imagining herself down the road, with a big belly. but before she could submerge herself in baby mush, he mentioned he was always down to cuddle. which of course was a mistake on his part. she raised a golden arched eyebrow at him and smirked, always? i'll have to see about that. she imagined herself attempting to cuddle with him as he left for work, mentally snickering at what she guessed would be his annoyed grimace, one he displayed whenever she had done something to get on his nerves.
aspen had always had an incredibly obnoxious sex drive, and that was something slade had to accept. she was always going to say raunchy things, always attempt to seduce him, and wear lacy underwear just to be 'comfortable'. of course, slade being as handsome as he was didn't hurt. it's your fault i'm this way you know, she grinned playfully. she took a bite of chicken, pleased that her new recipe had turned out rather well, and she made a mental note to add it to her book. and judging from slade's reaction, he seemed to like it. so it automatically needed to be added to the 'slade appropriate' meals section. if you weren't so damn handsome, and so desirable, i might be able to control myself. she was stroking his ego now, something she loved to do, a lot. anything to make her slade happy.
